Fall

I've been very reflective the last few weeks. Fall is my favorite time of the year and was also my mother's favorite. I've been reminded of her so much lately and I deeply miss her.

She has now been gone for almost 12 years and it still hurts so much. I miss her the most I think when I'm preparing to bring another one of God's children into this world. She never got to see me graduate from college, get married, or meet any of my children. She always told me what a great mom I would be and I just wish she was her to help me and encourage me.

My kids know that my mom died from a nasty thing called cancer, but I don't think they completely understand. They call her Kayro because that is what Bailey Joe and Gunter Pennington named her years ago. I can't wait for my kids to meet Kayro one day in God's heavenly kingdom.

I think I have had an especially hard time lately because this baby is a little girl. My mom would be SO excited! I miss her when I'm shopping for Minnie, working on her room, going to my doctors appointments, or just want to call her and talk about it. I've been blessed with wonderful family and friends, but nobody can replace your mom.

My mom was a beautiful woman inside and out. She loved her Lord like no other and she loved her family to the moon and back. Mom I miss you everyday and can't wait to dance with you in heaven!